I really just want to text you and tell you about my whole day. Tell you everything that you missed by not talking to me for the past acouple of days. Please just come up to me give me the biggest hug and just let me spill my heart out to you.

Everything I do reminds me of you….

Everyone keeps saying that you will be okay and you will find someone else who’s better, but did they ever think to wonder maybe I don’t want anyone but him. I want my boyfriend back, I don’t want anyone else. Everything I do reminds me of the times we spent together. I can’t even sit on my own couch and not think about the time we spent in that same exact spot. Falling asleep together, watching movies, cuddling with him, kissing him, and just being with one another. I can’t bare to think my life with out him being all mine. Seeing him with other girls will crush my heart. Having people talk bad about him just to make me feel better isn’t helping. Even though he may not be my boyfriend and may have hurt me it wasn’t in his intentions. No one knows how he treated me or how our relationship was. Know one really knows a person until you date them. He is my bestfriend and I trust him with everything. Just because he has made some mistakes in the past doesnt mean anything; people grow up and realize what they have done and change the person who they are. He was able to do that. The people that make up rumors and start crap are the ones that know it gets under his skin and will ruin him. Know one understands what i’m going through know on knows how hurt i am. My heart is broken into a million pieces and the worst part is i don’t hate him. I wish i did because this would be 10x easier for me, but i love this kid. Everything reminds me of him everything. I just want him back in my life as my boyfriend, bestfriend and i want him to be the love of my life. This is the hardest thing i have went through. I don’t want anyone else but him. Please stop trying to make things better because the only person who can help me is him. And he can’t give me what i want because he can’t change the way he feels. This sucks soo much because i know he is hurting too. My heart is broken and I wish I could turn back time and just kiss him one last time. I wish this was one of those fights when he holds me tight and tells me that everything will be fine baby, but everyone knows that we are done and everyone knows he isn’t coming back. I’m just the one that is still hoping something will change. 

When you get to high school the friends you love will drift away from you. You don’t have any control on that. You will meet new people or find a special someone you want to be with all the time. You will begin to be the only one that tries to hold onto the friendship, but soon you will give up. You will look back on memories and cry yourself to sleep because things are soo different now. You begin to get use to the times when they ignore you or don’t invite you out with them. You will begin to feel replaced; see them out with new people doing the things you use to do. And then you will just have to face the fact you are losing them………I want my bestfriends back.